Monday, November 28, 2011

What's my deal?!

I'm embarrassed to even post anything anymore. I talk all this big crap when I am sitting at my desk about how "today is the day" and "I'm back!" but once I get home and it's time to live up to all my promises I've made - I don't. I start in with the "tomorrow talk" and "maybe next Monday" or "after this holiday". I realized today I have made a 360 and have ended up exactly where I was at last year, weight included. I am not motivated at all and I'm sad once again. I weighed myself this morning and I am back at 205! (right where I was this time last year). I feel horrible.

I signed up for a two year gym membership and I am nearing the end of the first year and haven't did anything with it (that has stuck anyways).I cant let this next year go by with this membership and not change anything about myself. I hate to sound like a broken record but today I will be going back. To be quite honest, I am not pumped at all. I feel (once again) at my lowest on how I have let myself get to this point. But last night I downloaded my LoseIt app once again. ....Really, that's how much I gave up, I deleted the app off my phone.

I know I said previously how I would be posting pictures but I think it would be best to wait on that until the end of the year when I purchase a computer. I think I am currently the only person that doesn't have one at home. I do mainly all my blogging at work but just been busy lately so I am going to have to cut down on my personal use and focus more on work. & Posting pictures from my cell is out of the question.. my smart phone isn't that smart apparently (I tried ... total fail).

So once again ladies, Day 1

1 comment:

  1. Oh my gosh, I hear ya! I can't tell you how many - "Day 1", "Maybe next Monday", "After the holidays" moments I have had over the last 14 years!! It's crazy, but, I guess, it could be worse. We could not want to change, at all, and that would be bad to be okay with staying unhealthy, but we do want to get healthy, and we try and try again. But let's just get it done - once and for all!! We deserve it!!